Is January almost over already?
The begining of this year has been a transitioning period for me (lollll you have no idea just how transitioning) and I want to make a shout out to my 3best friends who have been the best indeed, helping me through each hurdle *bisous* *bisous*
Life . . .
Oh life. like a tidal wave, its so easy to miss the way, or forget “the purpose” altogether.
I love shiny things, I love petite things. I love big things. Mostimes I love the big things in small sizes. I love pink things and kisses. I love sweet things and dizzy dancing. Free hours and my locks flying in the wind. I love those little pleasures. and the big explosions. I love the lights. the cameras. the action. I love shoes and the bounce. I love clothes, I love them cropped and crawling up my thighs, lol. I am a lover and I love love!
The big question however,
Do I love me?
Do I “know” me, to begin with??
Lisening keenly to my Pastor as I sit on one of those elevated cinema hall chairs, I watch him pace the stage, passion in his voice, he talks about vision.
A simple yet all encompassing message that will haut me down till I hear “Weldone ‘Good and Faithful’ servant, you have completed your run!” (paraphrased)
Vision is the only reason I am here on earth.
Look at a manufacturer for example, he thinks of a product, defines it’s use(s) and then creates it! (ok maybe that’s not super explicit but) my point, God has a specific assignment He created and put me on earth for. That is the me that defines me. My true essence.
I could never love myself right if I haven’t first understood my worth!
then the wind will blow by, I’d ask where it’s going, and irrespective of it’s destination, I’d hitch the ride.
I’m tired of failing!
I’m tired of falling, getting up and falling again!
The truth is, no matter how strong you are, there is an enemy ever ready to tug, tug, tug, and tug at you till you become too weak to stand, or maybe consider that sitting is an “ok” option.
. . .
“Tho there be the good and permissive will, God still wants for us, His PERFECT will”
I saw a Display Picture on my Time Line two nights ago, the words of a very wise man ~Mark Twain, it read: “The two most important days in your life are the day you are born and the day you find out why!”
I look at the picture and I nod my head like “hmmm rhema wurrd! hmmm hmmm”
But I’m still here going through this indecisive phase? living like I dont know my purpose? (when there was this day God showed it to me).
The Question is, why don’t I love myself enough to start living out the dream?
Why don’t I love myself enough to let myself be great? Why am I so illusioned by the tidal waves that has upturned many a ship! (heheh ok)
My life is full of so much possibilities. so many things I can do and would love to do (oh don’t let me get started on that, lol)
Dear God, thank You for the special people You’ve given me who SEE ME and try to show me to me when my vision gets blurry. for the boo who keeps pushing me to progress. for it was while having one of our “progress town” chats that I stood up with vexation (not literally) and re-convinced myself that I am #MadeForMore.
Enough of living my life like I’m just a sailor passing through!
Today, I challenge myself to accomplish great feats (it begins from this note you see, cuz I aint wrote in a mighty long time)
I challenge myself (and someone else) to greatness everyday
To . . .
Because God loves me and you so much He gave us an amazing reason to live! #FindIt and #DoIt #GodIsLove
“follow people who remind you to dream” ~rema rhed.